Sitting Awkwardly

Success, as Dr Crazy pointed out in the comment(s) to the previous post, is harder to re-channel into productivity. I think of my own tendency to be extremely prolific in creating - academic writing, non-academic writing, music - in those transitional periods surrounding failure. Around the dawning point in relationships that they're not working, but before the crisis of disjunction has been reached. In the terrible waiting period before the slim envelopes start arriving, or in the echoing silence some time after they've stopped arriving. In short, to respond to Crazy's 'why...a profession that has rejection at its center', I offer up the possibility that every blasted last academic works better with a few bitter failures at which to stare. Works better with a bunch of thin envelopes to fan the embers of productivity into the hellish flame of actual work. Speaking of which, I'm still attempting to re-capture the bitterness of a few days ago and keep the 'edge' for my work as I continue revising something for publication as an article. In order to eventually re-revise it into book form, some mysterious hybrid space between dissertation and article...